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I’ve managed to get my netbook back. In fact I’ve got it for more than 1 week now. Though I must admit I didn’t visit this blog. I was occupied. If playing WoW and making myself learn japanese can be called an occupation.
So. I’m sitting next to my classroom. Having a break between my lessons. Trying to make myself open that Anki and learn Kanji. It’s hard. But I have to do it.
Eh… life goes on…
Edit: Omg, made a stupid spelling mistake and noticed it after almost one week…
Finally this stupid holiday of “celebrating the memory” of those who have passed is over. Me, Myself, I think that this holiday in our current, polish society should be erased from our calendars. Most (not everyone bust most) of us don’t understand the point of this holiday. They go to those damn cemeteries, put those candles on the graves, do the cleaning up of the grave and the area around, say a short “Zdrowaśka” and “Ocze nasz” and go on to the next cemetery. And for the whole year since now they probably won’t visit the grave even once, or they won’t spend time for cleaning the grave till next All Saints Day. This, for me, is just some kind of hypocrisy of human “memory” about people that lived in the past. One big joke.
Another thing funny about this holiday. People sometimes go to cemeteries to meet their families, not to visit the grave. And those “family meetings” are thought to be the aim of this day. My grandma yesterday got mad, cause one of her friends didn’t come to her mom’s grave, even those she new m grandma was standing next to this grave. I’m almost sure she (my grandma) was not even thinking at that moment about her parents, but about that friend/some further family (I have no idea who that was), who was so bad not to come to chat a bit.
I really hate this holiday, I hate my society, They’re too connected to everyday living. Can’t stop and think about more important stuff, than just how to get cash, how to survive the next week in my live.
Yeah! A week has passed! And another week already began. Studies. Again. New people (on my year), same sensei’s. Weird feeling. Or maybe not. For the 3rd time 1st year. That sounds funny. I’m younger every year, with new people I meet on University. Hope this year will be better than last one. And that I’ll finally get to the 2nd year
Had a stupid day today:
-stupid misunderstanding with my English lessons. Will have to have additional work on Wednesday.
-4 times didn’t make it for my bus! Yeah I at the 4th time I just showed the driver a f*ck.
-my broken netbook was not accepted at the shop I bought it. Will have to send it to Acer’s for repair and that will take me ages.
-gosh… I could find so many more… but I’m too tired today
Today was the polish premier of this film. Based on my favourite book by Coelho, I had great expectations about this one.
Spoiler
Gellar => great appearance, except for 2 scenes. First, the one when found out that she will die. In the book Veronica was happy that she succeeded. Gellar looked frighten, scared. My girlfriend said that it could be cause of the time she had left… but I didn’t believe that explanation. Second was a moment when she looked… sad? She had eyes like that Puss in Shrek. That… didn’t work for me.
Tucker => great Eduard playing, nice eyes talking, though no visions of paradise, no explanation of Eduard’s past, only some mentioning that he had a car accident (not a bike one), and his girlfriend died. We also see her photos at the middle and end of the movie.
Claire (Zedka) => name and history changed, she mentions Veronica about her Astral Journey, which…. sux. Book was more private about this. And finally, she doesn’t go out of Villette, whereas in the book she does. Though Christiansen played quite well as a character.
Mari => in love with Blake (Igor)? Naaah. Don’t believe it. Also no explanation of her panic attacks, no charity history and she finishes the movie by coming back to a law company.
Blake (Igor)=> great played by David Thewlis, love him as an observer not a participating guy. Really liked how he interacted with Veronica, as she was “dying”. He’s a plus for this movie.
Some problems:
1. No Fraternity, only some members mentioned by name
2. Sufi master for all of the patients, no rose, the explanation about yourself made just by the master, no Veronicas question.
3. Fairy tale about the kingdom…shortened. Though the essence was there.
4. And… she met her parents, while in the book it doesn’t happen even once.
5. New York. WTF New York?
Now good things:
1. There was the… masturbation scene!! I really though the director will cut it out. Though she didn’t. For me this is the most important scene in the book. I really hoped it will be in the movie. And it was. That’s a big +
2. More focus on Eduard. Liked that.
3. Great soundtrack. The “Moonlight” Sonata played sound great. Loved it.
End of spoiler
In summary Veronica is a great movie to watch, to think through, to spend some time on it. Though you shouldn’t watch it if you think that it will be the same as the book. And you should read the book before watching the movie
Yeah, let the flames begin. Today starts my studying (again 1st year 
). Hope now I’ll survive till the 2nd year this time
Also today Veronica decides to die has it’s premier in polish cinemas. Going to see it of course (my favorite book by Coelho)
WoW Spriest progress:
57 todays morning
„Should I change?” That was one of the most import ant question I asked myself yesterday. Should I stay the way I am, the way I was brought up, the way I hurt other ppl, but also the way, which is good for me. Yesterday I saw how simple, how shallow (if English has this word in this specific meaning) I am. Just sex and PC. Sometimes books and rarely friends. Was I really this simple? I believe I were. I realized that while lying in bed with Ola, when she wanted and (what’s strange) I didn’t.
I realized that I don’t have any idea how to behave between other people. How to interact, communicate with them. I knew how to talk with them, how to listen to them, but not how to get some contact with them. When she asked me what I wanted to do, cause we always had sex or I sat in front of PC, I didn’t know what to say. Funny isn’t it? Me, the person who always judged people on how they behaved with others, how they lived, what they said or had done. Didn’t know what to do in the situation I used to judge people by.
The second funny thing, that although I never realized my solitude, I liked it. I thought that by self contemplating every thought I was better than most people, that my soul did grow, that my horizons where wider. I still prefer to think things through myself, without anyone around. It appeared also yesterday after seeing one of the episodes of Code Geass. It was one of the 2 most tragic episodes in the 1st season of this anime. Lulu destroyed Shirley, by destroying her love. Probably you have no idea what the fuck I am talking about, though the most important thing is that I’ve cried. Yeah, I did and I don’t care whether it’s such a stupid thing and not appropriate thing for a guy. Ola probably understood me and wanted to hug me. And I rejected her hug. I preferred to be alone, feel the solitude, be able to think it through again, and again alone (yeah I’ve already seen this anime once). Is this wrong? Is this need to be alone a bad thing? Does it really hurt other people when I reject them just to be alone?
I know that this sounds awkward, probably hard to understand and not linked together, but I had to write down those thoughts .
And it’s 12.23 AM Sunday 27.9.2009
Tomorrow’s the pre-premier of Veronica decides to die, though I’ll see it on Friday… Buu…
One of the fav House’s quotes in one of the episodes in 4th season. 3 days ago (i think so) I met a friend on my way home. He was in my class during primary school. From what I remember, there wasn’t any person in class who liked him or let’s say respected him, his behavior. Also from what I remember, he left our class, or maybe it’s just my memory giving me mistaken thoughts.
Some time ago (like 2-3 years) I had a small class meeting, where 5 or 6 ppl met and had fun. He was one of them. As always he stayed back, didn’t chat a lot etc. He didn’t change for sure.
And now, I’ve seen him again. I must admit, I was not really happy I saw him on that bus and I tried to everything, that he couldn’t recognize me. As always, with Murphy’s law around, he did. He came to me and we had a small chat. The important thing is that, he said about that meeting some years ago and he said that he behaved that way ’cause he wanted to see how he was when he hated himself. Now, he said, studies acting, goes to some kind of school, connected with acting and from what he was trying to tell me I understood, that he changed.
But I didn’t notice the change. Maybe I did not want to notice it. For me, he still behaved the same way, as he did in school or on that meeting. He wouldn’t be a person I would see on the street and think “Hey, he’s a cool guy. Maybe he’s someone nice to befriend.”, I would rather think “Omg, who is this, what a lame”. So, am I the one who made his opinion based on a prejudice or something else had happened? O simply, he didn’t change at all. Maybe he “thinks” he changed, but in reality nothing had happened.
I think, people don’t change. Or maybe they don’t change when their character is made, after, let’s say, school. We stay the same for our whole life, we can change our attitude, our way of seeing life, but we won’t change the exterior, our behavior towards other people. Maybe I mixed up things, maybe I’m hard to understand. Maybe my sick mind makes strange conclusions. Eh…
Quote for today:
“Almost dying changed nothing, dying changed everything”
House S5E01
Yeah dinged 46 today
Hope I’ll get tomorrow 48 and on Thursday 50
Today I met my friend. One of the old ones. And one of the important ones. Probably she (coz she’s a she friend) doesn’t know that, but still she’s a important friend of mine.
When I met her today, I had that strange feeling in my heart. Some kind of joy and happiness, that you always feel, when something nice happens to you.
I hadn’t seen her for almost one year. Last time in December of last year, while he was in Poland and I must admit, that one year is both long and short in case of time. I remember exactly what happened that time, but still so many things happened since then.
And she’s an important person. She helped me survive that troublesome period in my life, when I encountered my first problems at studies. I think I could count on her, during that time. Or maybe I’m just idealising? Maybe it’s just how my memory (and thus mind) changed the past. Maybe I’m wrong.
Nevertheless I’d like to thank you. I know that you’ll see this post in near future. I want to thank you, that you were there. That now I know how to react in such situation.
I must admit that I’ve got few friends of that kind. That are important to me, though I don’t see them very often. And this means something like once in… 1, 2 or even 3 years. Maybe I should change it?
P.S. And thanks for the fact that I saw with you one of the best polish films (at least for me) I’ve ever seen.
P.S 2 I had my first pseudo english (used both polish and english, but it doesn’t change this fact 
) talk with some foreigner
P.S 3 I hope my girlfriend won’t get jealous, because of this post.
Sleep well, all of you.
Gosh… I hate those. You have to sit next to the table and pretend you’re interested in what others are saying. I really hate those.
And now… I’m waiting for such a meeting. Some family members from my father’s side are coming to us and he have to make that dinner and look so nice and good and helpful and… goooosh that stupid, we’re not really like that! Hate pretending someone who I’m not…
The only good thing is that I won’t have to sit with them all the time… At 5PM going out of this annoying situation. Going to my GF’s place. Probably I’ll write something more later.
Yeah, as you can notice, I don’t like my family.
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